I'm Ba-ack

Tumblr is getting too busy and shutting down, so I'm back to a more reliable platform.

During my hiatus I have been having an existential crisis, been slacking on housework (bane of my existence), making home-made salted caramel fudge, working night-fill, re-reading Harry Potter from the first book through, finding retro pieces to fill out my wardrobe, studying wicca, playing 'Enslaved', watching Food Documentaries, looking for full-time work (an exercise in futility at this point), living vicariously through Family and Friends on the other wide of the world, dreaming up my Bucket List, going on weekly trips to the Library and Ikea and making plans for my return to Burlesque...

If our ruinous civilization is built on a struggle of good versus evil, then its healing demands the opposite: self-acceptance, self-love, and self-trust. Contrary to our best intentions, we will never end the evil and violence of our civilization by trying harder to overcome, regulate, and control a human nature we deem evil, for the war on human nature, no less than the war on nature, generates only more separation, more violence, more hatred. "You can kill the haters," said Martin Luther King, "but you cannot kill the hate." The master's tools will never dismantle the master's house. The same applies internally. You can go to war against parts of yourself you think are bad, but even if you win, like the Bolsheviks and the Maoists, the victors become the new villains. The separation from self that the campaign of willpower entails cannot but be projected, eventually, in some form, onto the outside world.

Yeah, sure, self-acceptance. . . the concept is pretty much a cliché these days. In its full expression though, the path to Reunion of self-acceptance, self-love, and self-trust is utterly radical, challenging cherished doctrines of how to be a good person. Let me state it as purely as I can: the path to salvation for us as individuals and as a society lies in being more selfish, not less.

Ascent of Humanity

 Nubby Twiglet

So...

No more Burlesque for me :(
But I have discovered Tumblr.
I like it better than Blogger and don;t see the point in having both.
I will be exporting my posts from here onto there and then closing this one down.
The new Lady Viviane Mae
Click it.

Things I Love...

Hot Milo
My son wearing his 'Bumblebee' costume morning noon and night
Tumblr photography and reading all the insightful opinions on the wearing purple on Wednesday for the 'It gets better' campaign
Skyping the Family in the USA
Coconut M&Ms
Putting up Christmas Decorations at work while singing along to Regina Spektor
My sister being awesome organised and supportive
Planning a day with my boys to the Museum
Baking Cornbread from scratch then devouring way too much fresh from the oven with honey butter
Reading books on Poetry (my mum's old high school poetry book, Chaucer to Plath... it's pretty amazing), Maori Treasures (a flute made out of a human arm bone!), Art Nouveau (always loving anything Mucha related) and the last book in the 'Fablehaven' series 'Keys of the Demon Prison'
My boyfriend who makes me laugh
Watching Poh's Kitchen and kinda going 'wha?' when a guy put milk in his bolognaise sauce... and the subsequent laughter from the BF
Being introspective about myself, banishing guilt and negative language.
Full Moon
Homemade Nacho's with loads of avocado and mexi-beans and CHEESEY goodness while watching Jurassic Park
Actually having conversations with my son. He is nearly 4 and has just started stringing coherent sentences together and have enough attention span to sit down and tell me about stuff he does at Dad's house, his favourite shapes and Transformers, Iron Man... asking how many days until he see's my bf's 9yr old son who is with us on weekends. My son worships my BF's son. It's very very cute.
Caramel Crown bikkies
Doing Radio Music Survey's and saying Beyonce's 'Sweet Dreams' is a favourite of mine (Must be Blared when going Clubbing fo' sho') (also the Video Clip remind's me heaps of the old German silent film 'Metropolis' you should check it out. Lady Gaga references the movie as well)
Getting an email back from Gala Darling (fangirl squee)

Eminem - Not Afraid

Say what you like about Eminem, I love this song.

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

Tumblr

My new Tumblr account is teething.

I am liking it already more than the Blogger platform, except that I am a little confused as to how to input Pic's from sources outside Tumblr... any help?

Disappointment

So because of emotional and financial troubles, I'm unfortunately gonna have to step back from the Burlesque scene. Boo.
This blog will now be going in a more artsy direction I think... we'll see.

Let's see where the White Rabbit leads me.

Artoo

Black Milk Clothing... just came out with an R2D2 swimsuit... I think I NEED this.